a big heart and a little book

First of all, I am overwhelmed by your response to my last post. I sincerely didn't think you all would feel so concerned, but I guess we are all makers at some point, and we all compared ourselves at some point as well. So, thank you, a big, heartfelt thank you for your response here & on other social medias, I sincerely appreciate you took time to write such long comments, all filled with your precious words about your own experiences. It helped me a lot. A real lot. I felt understood, I didn't feel so alone anymore, and it all made sense in the end. Speaking out (so to speak !) felt like a liberation ! It broke into pieces the invisible carcan that was wrapped around my creativity. I feel "free" again. And you all have something to do with that. So thank you. My heart is big & full thanks to you.

Speaking of heart (what a sneaky transition but I couldn't help !), this heart above, is the first creation of 2018 that I put on the virtual shelves of the shop. Thankfully for me, it's been sold before I had time to put it here, but I'm hoping to make more in the same spirit ! All details are in the shop, but to make long short, it was made with naturally dyed fibers all the way !

I also have added another item : a needlebook. Also made from naturally dyed fibers, and featuring a gorgeous handmade ceramic button by my friend Laura, in Canada. (her shop is here)

They both can be seen & found in the shop here. (or link on top of this page) Thanks a lot for your visit, and for your comments, and your support most of all !

With love,

Sonia

after the creative crisis

I've been hoping to write this post for a long long time, but fact is I wasn't ready.

During months & months, I've been stuck in what I'll call a Creative Crisis. A real, though one. Thinking about moving, then moving, then settling in, then having house/garden projects (I enjoyed having a garden so very much as you might have noticed on the blog in 2017 !) then .... a mad mad mad case of comparisonitis, a terrible lack of practice, a crazy lack of confidence ... I deeply fell down the creative hole. And I'm not blaming anyone else but myself. Self pity & guilt at its best.

I allowed myself not to force things ... and of course it took months (years ?) until I found the desire to create again. I recently made a gift for a friend, and it gave me a little more confidence, boosted a little more my creative juices ...

And yesterday I picked up something I've left off last summer. I had embroidered a little piece (that was meant to become a zipped pouch) of naturally dip-dyed linen, with naturally dyed silk threads.

I'm done with comparing myself to other makers. The only thing that it did was to hurt myself very much. Not my ego (as some would say) but my creative self.

We all have different pasts, different backgrounds, different histories, different skills, different goals, different schedules, different family situations, different creative spaces, different ethics ... We cannot create the same things therefore we shall not compare each other !

Why have I spent so much time comparing myself to others ? I simply don't know. Doubting about myself, about my ability to create, about my ability to make things that other people might like. I've spent too many time thinking about what on earth people would like me to create. Isn't it just crazy ? Completely insane ? Too much introspection ? I don't know but it's been paralyzing me.

One thing I know now, or what I have understood at last, is that I am myself (pretty obviously) and noone else. I do what I can do, with what I have & who I am. I "simply" have to create things that I love myself (not what other people will like/love). Creating things that I would totally keep for myself will result in creating things that will come naturally to my (creative) soul & hands.

Sorry it's been a lot to read, but it was necessary for me to write this & to explain to you what I've been through. Thank you for your patience.

With love,

Sonia

twenty : eighteen

Well hello everyone and happy new year ! I took a blog break, after an active month of December ! I hope you also manage to  make a break of some sort, because we all need to unplug from time to time !

Anyway ... I thank you so much for reading my blog in 2017, and I thank the ones of you who took time to comment even warmer, I know it requires to be logged in Disqus & it demands a little extra time. I'm really grateful for your faithfulness & perseverance.

So what happened during the break ? Well, nothing in particular ... Two days ago the boys went back to school & the hubby back to work, and it very unfortunately coincided with the day when there was (what we call here) a Mediterranean episode (a meteorological phenomenon, specific to the Mediterranean area), paired with a high electrical intensity (it was stormy for a whole day, which never happens). Well, let's say it wasn't the best timing, right ? Life ...

Do I have resolutions ? Not really resolutions so to speak, but strong wills to change things in my life, and a bunch of things to make, in various areas. I'm a list girl at heart, and there are four of them taped to the wall in front of me. I think it should be the subject to my next post.

So, here's to a new year of blogging. I hope you will keep on following me. Thank you for your visit today !

With love,

Sonia